Tug of war
There is a
tug of war in my head
I am ever
conflicted
Decisions to
be made
Thoughts to
be thought
Words to be
said
Between the
old familiar voices that have lived with me for so long and the new words of
comfort and healing that are brand new
The old
voices don’t feel like making room for the newbies, get off my turf they say
Hence the
mental civil war between the vets of damaging messages that are keeping me
feeling trapped and overwhelmed with gloom and the new words of hope and a chance
t be free.
Or do I just
need to be realistic? Realistic or pessimistic?
Are my new
beliefs delusional? Because they are unusual?
But the
usual has not been working for me
And yet what
is the truth, what should I do? How should I think?
I don’t even
know how to think anymore.
I always
hated that game
Tug of war.
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